"Because of the Lord ’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness." Lamentations 3:22-23
Happy New Year 2020 !
I wish you all the happiness, health, wealth, faith for all the 366 days to come. I hope you will be surrounded with love, grace and greatness. I pray that you win everything this year and that you reach new levels in life.
What should change in 2020? What do you want to see happen this year? These are questions I asked myself and I came up with answers that I want to put down as my 2020 resolutions. I usually don’t take any because I don’t stick to them but I need my life to be more organized and this is a way to plan it.
Let’s throw this energy into the universe and let the world know what we want to happen. Let’s speak things into existence and seek the Lord for assistance.
So here are my 2020 resolutions :
1. Keep developing my faith
First of all, I started to develop social anxiety at the youth group at Church. I love my brothers and sisters but being around them suddenly became kind of unnatural to me. It became harder for me to attend the church service. And don't get twisted, our Church is amazing. So many great things have happened for me in this house of God and thank to its members. However, I haven't been strictly going to Church lately so I need to work on that.
Also, I need more Jesus in my life. He is already there but do we ever get enough of him? We don’t. And our relationship with God should always grow bigger, better, closer.
2. Keep working on my mental health
I have been through depression again last year and I began to wonder: “Do you really heal from depression or does your life become a constant struggle to fight your depressive thoughts?”
The first time I ever been depressed was in 2014. The next few years were okay, but since 2017, my mental health has been dramatically challenged. Healing is a process that I have started back then but I need to maintain my efforts in order to be depression-free… In order to be really happy.
3. Have a healthier lifestyle
This goes along with the mental health issue. When you are depressed, you sleep more, have a vampire lifestyle, eat less or too much, become a junkfoodie, don't take care of your body…. You feel bad on the inside and it reflects on the outside.
My physical health needs to be dealt with – not that I look a mess – but I could do better. For instance,
I could eat healthier meals and basically stop having the eating habits of a five-years-old, with all the candies and cookies. I haven't really grown up “foodingly”. Working on my core would be fine too. Overall, let's work on that body. We can do better. Speaking of sports, i want to take more dance classes. These are fun, you should try it.
4. Find my dream job
I need to find a job, where I can do something meaningful, where I get along with my boss and colleagues, where I enjoy going to the office every day. I need a job that doesn't challenge my mental and physical health, allows me to earn a good wage in order to provide for myself and for my family and allows me to find free time to work on my side hustles. I want to find my dream job this year. So Lord, I know you are listening…
5. Travel more
For this new year, I would like to travel more. Twice a year sounds good but if we can make it three times, it would be even better.
I would like to visit Puerto Rico. In fact, I visited the Dominican Republic and Cuba last year, so I would like to end the circle of the latino caribeean countries. I feel at home there, due to the obvious african heritage in the food, music and overall culture. I also have love for the people living there.
And now that I think about it, I wouldn't mind going back to Cuba and visiting Viñales, a city that is very green and probably smells like life and peace. Apparently, you can horse-ride there and drink this naturally reviving drink called "anti stress".
I don't know why I would like to visit Colombia but maybe I should go to the motherland a little bit. Kenya, Tanzania (my mother's land), South Africa… These are destinations I would love to visit. Let us pray in advance for us to have the financial resources to travel, have a good stay there and also pray for protection along the way.
6. Be more social
This is a tough one. When I fell into depression, I kind of distanced myself from people I used to know. I needed tranquility and I learned that you can find it if you protect your peace. I became meticulous about the type of energy I want to surround myself with. If I felt anxious or annoyed about your presence, I would not force myself to do any type of effort. Not cool but that was my mood.
Don't get it twisted though. I love my people, I really do. That doesn't mean I need to be in contact with them every single day. My mental health is shaky and I have to do whatever it takes to protect it.
However, ghosting people is not cool and maybe they miss me .Or do they? I mean, they haven't really tried to reach out to me… But anyways, I will try to be more open with people and to communicate better.
7. Explore my writing skills
So as you may now know, I am a writer. I write on this blog, I write articles about basketball but did you know I also write scripts, poems and tales? I am an overall writer with a lot of stories to tell and a lot of imagination too. I need to exploit my talent and to push forward, so that hopefully 2020 will be the year I would be able to showcase more of my writing skills to you.
I also want to write more and better basketball content. I remember bragging about how good and well-written my articles were, then reading them and being outraged by the typing mistakes and overall writing. This was a humbling experience that made me work harder on my content and not throw myself flowers for no reason.
8. Develop That Mood Swing
I love my blog, I love what I do to help you guys. I would like to keep developing TMS in order to have a bigger impact, as I am sharing my testimonies to inspire others and spreading the good news in order to have people created a relationship with the Lord.
There is so much to do, since there is many crazy things happening in this world. I only want to do my part, and I am using That Mood Swing as a tool for it.
This is when I ask for your help guys. Please do not hesitate to share my content, debate about my articles, interact with me by opening up about your own testimonies. Let’s start conversations about faith, let’s stop the stigma about mental health in the black community.. Let's change the world and make it a better place, where people are mentally and spiritually healthy.